PSYCH EVAL

I went for the psych eval, which of course, I find I am sane. However, Kaiser doesn't do the evals for the purpose of any kind of Court intervention, but for the purpose of treatment, which I do not feel that I need, however it has turned into therapy/counseling about the possibility of adopting two children at my age. I am 50 years old, and there is the element, hopefully small, that I would not live to see the children become adults. Also, my concern is having a boy alone without a strong male roll model in the home. I can wing it with a girl. I don't believe that girls need this as much as a boys. These are issues to be considered. I get to see the kids again tomorrow for my one hour court ordered visit.

www.fightcps.com

I keep up with new things that happen with this agency by reading this website. Of course, it isn't the only one. There are many.

DOCUMENTATION

I e-mailed a photo and medical documentation to a CPS investigator today. I wonder if anything will be done or if it will be justified, or disregarded. We'll see. I think about those kids every minute of everyday.

GOOD VISIT

I had a good visit with the kids today. I got to visit for 3 3/4 hours instead of the 1 hour that I usually get. It still isn't enough. I didn't want to put the baby down.

EVERYTHING IS MISCONSTRUED...

How is it that everything is misconstrued by CPS to fit their best interest? My son has told me that the Supervising Social Worker has now told him, when he visited with the baby on Monday, that in the medical record, the reason that it says "slight bruise R side head" is because that is what the foster mom was telling the assessing medical personnel. First of all, (and I am a nurse at this hospital) the first assessment was done by a triage nurse and on that assessment it says that the baby has been brought to the hospital for "head pain". How is anyone going to know if a baby has head pain, since a two month old baby can't tell anyone he has head pain? We might know if the baby is crying. However, this is where the nurse would ask the patient or parent why the baby was brought in. The second assessment which was done 1 1/2 hours later by a completely different nurse is where the nurse noted the bruised area. On that assessment we would not be asking anyone anything as far as input into the assessment. I have now reviewed the record again to see if the foster mother was present and it is not clear if she was present at that assessment or not. It is just amazing to me that EVERYTHING is construed to fit CPS's interests. I wonder how it will go down in Court?

HAVEN'T FORGOTTEN.....

I've thought about the kids all weekend. Will continue on the fight tomorrow.

THEY DID NOT PROTECT MY GRANDSON!!!!!

CPS took him from me because, initially, they said they felt that I could not protect the baby from my son. THEY DIDN'T PROTECT HIM EITHER, and my fear now is that the foster mother will retaliate against the kids because this is her livelihood. I didn't hear from any of the social workers on Friday. I did hear from a man who is a "liaison" between social services and I guess me. He said that my written, signed under penalty of perjury statement, had been delivered to all parties. My comment to him was: "do you think they even looked at it?" because they never seem to pay attention to much of anything I say. I just couldn't bear to call and talk to these people on Friday. I should have. I should have been screaming at them and then they would dismiss me as a ranting, raving lunatic, as they did before.

The Assistant Regional Administrator accused me of "fabricating" this injury and retouching the photographs. THAT MAN NEEDS TO LOSE HIS JOB!!! Someone at CPS suggested to my son that I need to have a full mental evaluation because of the stress. And then there is evidence of an injury, written by an assessing nurse in the ER on the night of 7/29/09. Thank God for nurses. I have found them to pay much more attention to detail than a busy ER doctor who didn't stop to think that this occurred earlier and may have been a much worse bruise than what he was seeing that night. No need for something so minor at that point, but who knows how bad the initial injury was. It had been two weeks since I had seen that baby on that day, 7/29/09. And who knows if anything was done about this on Friday. I just couldn't bear to have to speak to any of these people, or leave another unreturned phone call. And it is my grandson's life and that of his two year old half-sister that hangs in the balance. And all of this haunts me every minute of every day now.